There. I've said it.

I have a secret wish. It has been brewing inside for the past 3 years. D would say he has seen me obsess over it to no end.

Have you ever yearned for something that doesn't really make any sense?

In my case, it is a small home in a rural Newfoundland fishing village.

I've never been there. My desire runs too deep to blame it on advertising. It is like I've lived there before and now want to go back.

The weirdest part? I don't want to go there on vacation. I've booked many trips just to cancel them because the way I was going about it didn't feel right.

I want to just show up there just like that with keys to a home I've never been into.

As you know, I am a big lover of real estate. But I have never purchased property sight unseen nor without any large amount of due diligence.

I see this place as my secret hideaway. A form of escape? A mid life celebration gift to myself? I don't know. I just don't quite understand why I feel for it or where it is coming from.