It is a difficult thing to admit, the need for a day where I say "no" to any more demands on my time and more importantly, mental emotional load, however slight.
I find myself teetering on the edge of extreme frustration (already quite frustrated) and emotional detachment (my way of distancing myself when things get dark) even though on paper, things look good. There's a disconnect somewhere, so I know it is time to do this before I sabotage things further.
Cannot remember if I've ever taken a deliberate work day for myself. Booked a holiday yes but don't feel the need to fly anywhere. Just need to sit still by nature for a while to get grounded again and gain some control over perspective. And it cannot wait another day.
It scares me to feel this way especially after all I've done and seen. It hasn't felt like this for a very long time. But nowhere near the worst it has been. Just wise enough to recognize the signs.
What is 1 day, 1 week or even 1 month within a career lifetime?
Wishing you reflection and serenity this weekend.
ReplyDeleteI appreciate the encouragement. Thank you.
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